I woke up this morning feeling foul. It’s one of those days that I must monitor my every word and every action, knowing that I could explode on the nearest offenders.
Tate is lucky he’s at work today.
My children are lucky that I know how volatile my mood is today.
I’ve been keeping a running dialogue of self-checking reminders in my head all morning.
Don’t throw the green spoon at Carson, simply hand it to him and take the purple spoon away. He’ll stop crying if you do.
Ella will be napping soon. Don’t scream at her to shut up. She’s just a BABY.
You don’t even believe in spanking! Keep your hands to yourself.
Grow up! Act like the PARENT, not the toddler.
I don’t know what, if anything specific, set me off. Tate and I went on a date last night that was almost as fun as taking both kids with us. Almost. It is actually supposed to be in the 60’s today, but both of my kids are sick so we are stuck at home for what feels like the 873rd day in a row in exile. Maybe it’s the 8th day of Aunt Flo’s visit. Maybe the upcoming “vacation” home is stressing me out. Maybe I’m just tired.
I don’t want to feel like this.
Don’t drink all the alcohol in the house. The authorities would frown upon that. It would also cost thousands of dollars in therapy for the children.
Forget about baking those brownies to self-medicate.
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Oh goodness Jennifer. I hope you can make the mental space to just breath today. And I wish each child to take syncronized 3 hour naps.
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By Rayne of Terror on 03.31.08 11:50 am | Permalink
And by oh goodness, I mean I know those days WAY WAY too well.
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By Rayne of Terror on 03.31.08 11:51 am | Permalink
frick.
I know those days far too well too (had one this am when Tornado was up at 4 and shes not a napper) and I DETEST PLATITUDES when Im feeling that way.
so
uh
how about Ill have a glass of wine for you.
tonight
when bebe is asleep and it wouldnt be CALL CPS-worthy
M.
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By MizFit on 03.31.08 12:11 pm | Permalink
Oh I’m having one of those too! I’m trying to stay away from my boys as much as possible and take a *lot* of deep breaths and pauses before responding/reacting to something to give my brain that extra moment to consider the scope of my reaction. I’ve also had a lot of internal commentary about everything.
Mine, though I don’t know what’s causing it, has brought multiple/overlapping panic attacks with it. Yay for Miserable Monday!
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By Kelly on 03.31.08 12:14 pm | Permalink
I know those days way too well! Wrong side of the bed takes on an entirely new definition!!
I hope it passes and I’ll be sure to have a drink, or 9, for you!
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By Alison on 03.31.08 12:16 pm | Permalink
I know these days all too well. Luckily they seem to go as mysteriously as they come.
Wishing you long naps and a husband that gets home early!
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By Beth on 03.31.08 12:37 pm | Permalink
*backing out of P.A.N.P.F.C.*
Just kidding, I’m glad I’m not the only one! Hope you feel better tomorrow!
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By anne on 03.31.08 12:38 pm | Permalink
I can relate…to all of it. don’t yell at the baby, don’t throw things…yep..all of it.
Everyone is entitled to a bad day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
*hugs*
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By Sandy on 03.31.08 12:39 pm | Permalink
I recently had one of those days. Thankfully my children are old enough to know, STAY AWAY FROM MOMMA! Wishing you long naps and many drinks!
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By justmylife on 03.31.08 1:02 pm | Permalink
*lol* You sound like me!! *G* We will have to breathe and relax through it…(HA! Relax?! RIGHT). For me, the wordpress ‘upgrade’ didn’t help much…but, yeah…
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By Sadie on 03.31.08 1:05 pm | Permalink
You don’t have to drink ALL the alcohol in the house, but you could drink SOME.
I’m just sayin’…
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By Loralee on 03.31.08 1:06 pm | Permalink
If I eat some chocolate, would that make you feel better? No?
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By Burgh Baby's Mom on 03.31.08 1:13 pm | Permalink
Sounds like you live in MY head woman…
You’ll snap out…I know it.
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By ~JJ! on 03.31.08 1:20 pm | Permalink
I’ll come over and drink with you to commiserate if you want. I’m on Day 10 of Aunt Freaking Flo. Stupid IUD!
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By Shelly on 03.31.08 1:51 pm | Permalink
I’ve SO had days like these.
Sounds like a good movie day with sick kids…snuggle up and all take a nap.
Chocolate and alcohol will help…and a deep breath or two along the way.
Hope it’s better tomorrow.
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By MommyCosm on 03.31.08 2:01 pm | Permalink
Brownies were meant for days like these.
By Annie on 03.31.08 2:03 pm | Permalink
I seem to be having a lot of those days lately. And not doing nearly as good a job as you with the self-monitoring.
By tulipmom on 03.31.08 2:07 pm | Permalink
Who doesn’t know that feeling?! Hopefully it will be a much better afternoon than it was a morning! I’ll cross my fingers for you — a little extra wishing never hurt!
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By Maggie on 03.31.08 2:14 pm | Permalink
Love it. I sometimes wonder if i’m schizo from the conversations I have with myself in my head. Swearing like a sailor on the inside but refilling the sippy with a smile.
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By Jess on 03.31.08 2:20 pm | Permalink
I’ve had this day. Many times.
My assvice? Bake the brownies, honey.
By mrs. chicken on 03.31.08 2:24 pm | Permalink
If I knew where to send it, I’d send you a bottle of Love My Goat (red OR white) and some truffles. Hope the kids were cooperative with those naps and you got a break.
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By CourtneyRyan on 03.31.08 2:24 pm | Permalink
pretty sure the only thing that is going to make the day ok is the brownies mixed with a little of the alcohol…i promise not to tell!!
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By amanda on 03.31.08 2:33 pm | Permalink
Jeez, eight days of Flo? She’s overstaying her welcome, dontcha think?
Bummer about the kids being sick. How sick are they? A little fresh air might be good for them.
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By rubialala on 03.31.08 2:41 pm | Permalink
Maybe not drink ALL of the liquor, but I think times call for at least half of it. We won’t tell.
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By Queen of Shake Shake on 03.31.08 2:44 pm | Permalink
I get like that every 28 days or so. I just want to jump out of my skin. Is there any way you could leave and go shopping or to a movie the minute Tate walks in from work? You are totally allowed to do that. And there are some movie theaters where they will sell you beer.
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By Rima on 03.31.08 2:57 pm | Permalink
that’s totally how it is around here. to get to church on time (11 am) means that I have to be at the butt crack of dawn, bath and feed 4 kids, get myself ready, change all the kids clothes again, feed them again, forget about doing my hair or eating breakfast, load the kids into the car, and try not to freak out the whole time.
meanwhile the hubs irons his clothes, feeds himself, gets himself dressed, and then yells at us for not leaving on time.
yes. i cry with you.
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By jenica on 03.31.08 3:06 pm | Permalink
hi, i’m an idiot and commented on the wrong post.
but you’ve probably figured that out by now!
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By jenica on 03.31.08 3:07 pm | Permalink
Sorry that you are having a hard day. I am very impressed by your presence of mind to observe yourself in the mood and not get swallowed up by it. Remember to breath. Maybe it is time for a family dance party with some loud music! It helps me sometimes.
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By Yertle on 03.31.08 3:13 pm | Permalink
repeat after me:
this too shall pass. this too shall pass. this too shall pass …..
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By the planet of janet on 03.31.08 3:26 pm | Permalink
Yeah, any SAHM who DOESN’T have a day like this has probably had a significant amount of her brain removed. After both pregnancies, Aunt Flo’s return visits came in like a freakin’ tidal wave. The hormones, the PMS, the mood swings, extended timeframe….it all sucked. So, good for you for finding your outlet. Oh, and I agree that you should consider getting out tonight. Tate sounds like a smart man and will realize that it’s in everyone’s best interest.
By Angie on 03.31.08 3:27 pm | Permalink
I feel your pain….Flo’s cramps are about to kill me!
Your site rocks and I just found the cooking site too and quoted a recipe to ya!
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By Jen on 03.31.08 3:48 pm | Permalink
as a former SLP, i’m sure that you wish for the 20 to 45 minute session. when they irritate you, you send them out the door and know that they won’t be back for at least one day. oh, we’ve all had clients/students like that…don’t lie.
unfortunately (and sometimes, fortunately) i’m still working as the SLP. but there are definitely times on the weekend, where i wish i could send my girls out the door and get a new group in. but, there are also times when i wish i could send out my groups and get my own girls in my room. at least if they are screwy…i know who’s to blame.
on a positive note, my youngest - cora - has started saying mama…
on a negative note, it’s CONSTANT.
give and take give and take…
p.s. don’t worry about responding…i feel awful when you do…i’m the last of your concerns! i only write comments because i feel the need to. just take care of yourself and the babes! (and go for the chocolate…)
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By jen on 03.31.08 3:54 pm | Permalink
I’m not so sure that using a hot oven would be the best thing for you right now.
So I suggest having a Business Meeting with Ben and Jerry (NY Super Fudge Chunk) That should do the trick.
By Say what? on 03.31.08 4:58 pm | Permalink
see, i thought you were given yourself great advice until you got to the part about the brownies. if you change your mind, call me over.
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By Bon on 03.31.08 5:04 pm | Permalink
OMG - I think I’m having the same day as you, except that I had 4 additional children in the house on top of my 4 (thankfully 3 of them left for school this morning). I don’t drink, but today may be headed that way too.
By Shannon on 03.31.08 5:45 pm | Permalink
Feel better soon!
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By Devilish Southern Belle on 03.31.08 6:13 pm | Permalink
Girlfriend, one beer won’t hurt anyone, right? Just be sure to stop at one.
It is gonna get better. Soon it will be warmer out. And if it doesn’t get warmer, well then you should just hop on a plane with the kids and come out here and we’ll go to Disneyland. Disneyland makes everything better.
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By Mama DB on 03.31.08 8:03 pm | Permalink
I’ve been going through my day thanking God that the smart comments or bitter comebacks I’m thinking I actually haven’t been saying…for once. It’s hard sometimes, isn’t it? I say go for the brownies!
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By Mom24 on 03.31.08 8:22 pm | Permalink
Bake. The. Brownies.
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By Karly on 03.31.08 9:03 pm | Permalink
Oh my God, we had the same day. I’m sorry.
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By Jerseygirl89 on 03.31.08 9:06 pm | Permalink
Oh girl!! I hope tomorrow is better. I know those kinds of days.
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By MammaLoves on 03.31.08 9:35 pm | Permalink
I hope you took all that good brownie advice in the previous comments. Didn’t you know that the brownie was invented by a woman whose Aunt Flo had been there way too long?
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By Betsy Bird on 03.31.08 9:42 pm | Permalink
Ah, life!
Thank God they make up for it when they are sleeping!
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By Jenni on 03.31.08 10:42 pm | Permalink
You only have those days every now and again? I have them almost daily! Chin up. The warm weather is almost here to stay!
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By Toni on 04.01.08 6:14 am | Permalink
Just wanted to chime in…I’ve been there more times than I’d like to admit.
Hang in there.
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By LifeAsIKnowIt on 04.01.08 8:48 am | Permalink
I love this. That’s just how I talk to myself, too.
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By Swistle on 04.01.08 11:44 am | Permalink
I totally get it. I’ve been there. I am there. I will be there again. This motherhood thing is an up and down roller coaster ride.
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By Robin on 04.01.08 1:50 pm | Permalink
I grab a beer (for myself) and pull out the legos or coloring books and we all have playtime. Keeps my sanity. If that doesn’t work, Thomas videos work miracles.
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