Have you ever had a post at the top of your page that you really wish wasn’t the FIRST thing people see when they happen upon your blog? Well my last ultra whiny, self-absorbed post about my descent into moving hell is just that post that I’d like to be moved down the page a bit.
So here I am, not exactly taking a blogging hiatus, or possibly I am. I seriously just want that last post to just move on down the page. I’m not saying, “hey I’m totally fine with this move!” I’m not fine. But I’m trying to make the best out of a lousy situation and reminding myself that 1) we’re lucky my husband has a job in this economy and 2) I NEED to be positive for my sanity’s sake and my kids’ sake (and 3) It’s not okay to be as upset as I’ve been over the loss of my dream kitchen because DUDE: GET OVER IT. It’s merely a gas cooktop, sink in the center island, double ovens kind of kitchen. SERIOUSLY, BIG DEAL. WAAAAAH.)
Moving on…(ha! Get it?? Moving? God, I’m hilarious!)
Tate left Monday to start his new job and prior to his departure I was very worried about how I was going to be able to handle my two zoo-like wild children on top of all the stress. “Ohs noes! How ever will I do it alone?! It cannot be done! It cannot be done! Woe is me.”
Writing this next sentence is probably going to condemn me to a life of vomit/tantrum/diarrhea/no sleep hell tomorrow surely, but!!! This week has been surprisingly easy.
Possibly because I know that I don’t have reinforcements showing up, I’m freakishly calm and patient with the kids. So far this week, I’ve had to take two children two and under to the BMV (B???) to get my license plate. It was the easiest trip ever and my children…behaved. Then I lost a filling in one of my teeth and had to arrange childcare and find a dentist and schedule an appointment. Everything fell into place thanks to two of my neighbors and it turned out that I hadn’t actually lost a filling.
My son has become a pogo stick, jumping up and down at every attempt to dress or undress him. Normally I’d be sweating and cursing under my breath and saying (yelling) things like, “CARSON. ENOUGH. Stop jumping right now or I’ll take away all of your trains and feed you to wolves.” There would be lots of wrinkle inducing nose scrunching and eyebrow furrowing. And eye rolling. And huffing. (There wouldn’t really be mention of being eaten by wolves. Uh. Yeah.)
But instead I find myself gentler and smiling and not allowing this annoying stage to get the worst of me. I haven’t freaked out when Ella throws her entire tray of food on my just mopped floors. My house is cleaner, the TV hasn’t babysat, and I’ve made lots of “progress” on our impending move. And oddly, despite Tate getting to socialize and eat out every night, I don’t feel resentful or overworked for being the stay-at-home parent.
I’m not sure what being a better single parent says about my parenting abilities or mental state, but I’ll take the “good mommy” me over the “BAD mommy” me anyday.
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I’d like to thank each of you who has offered sympathy and encouragement to me as a result of our move to Tennessee. To answer a few questions we are moving to East Tennessee, we’ve lived there before, and my husband is in management for a company and apparently he’s pretty good at his job so they keep asking him to help at other plants.
I thought your last post was well deserved. I’m glad you’re happier in this one though. I’m also glad things are going well, but shhhhh!
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I think you are calmer for 2 reasons. 1) You got a lot off of your chest in the previous rant filled post, and 2) Because most parents have that overdrive function where they can just do what HAS to be done when they know that Daddy or Mommy can’t be there in a little bit for the break or backup, so we use our super calm personas and become (phone booth please) Super Parents!!!)
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I agree with the previous commenter, but that’s neither here nor there.
It’s funny how things work – hubs works from home and I stay at home with the kids. He’s great and he tries to help me out as much as he can during the day, but the days ALWAYS go smoother when he’s out on location or in meetings or away for business. Like you, I find myself exceptionally calm and actually accomplishing goals.
I’ve mentioned this phenomenon to others before and no one believes me, so I’m so glad you wrote this post!
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Sorry that this came as a bit of an unexpected surprise…but you should be so proud for putting it all in perspective. We have moved 3 times in the last 3 years, so I totally feel your pain. And yes, we’ll move again as of next Spring for HIS job…
Tennessee is LOVELY and I know you’ll be happy there…sending hugs and wine!
I’m so glad you’re having a good week!! I was less whiny during my brief single-parent time too…not sure what that’s all about!
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I wanted to reach through the computer and give you a big ol hug or maybe just a gallon of ice cream on your previous post but I had internet “issues”.
Every time I finally update my drivers license 2-3 months later we end up moving. Just thought I’d throw that piece of random at ya.
Hugs and Ice Cream for all!
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Glad you’re having a decent week w/o Tate there. I find myself calmer as well when I know I have to last all day/night. Strange, hunh?
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I don’t know. I think the last post was absolutely positively reasonable and not at all whiney. Sometimes things just suck, even when they aren’t End of the World.
Good luck with all the preparations, and way to go with the dose of patience!
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Yay for mental progress and behaved children!
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I want some of that Zen good mama stuff you’ve got.
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whew. glad to see you have found a little place of calm in your storm.
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Yay for good mommy! Just take it, don’t question the mommy gods.
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Ok, here is a question…do they have to make him MOVE everytime or could they just fly him out there when they need him? I mean, you guys JUST MOVED…it seems like you could have stayed in the old place and they could have paid to fly him out there for a while…
Just a thought.
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It’s just that you are stronger than you knew yourself to be. what a great moment of self-discovery for you. Well done.
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I’m the same way. When I know the hubs isn’t going to be home early enough in the evening to help me things go much smoother. Mostly, I think, because I don’t feel the stress about having to coordinate with him and I know that no one is going to come and bail me out of a bad situation.
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First of all, you have every right to be pissy about having to move again. Especially since your kitchen sounds like it ROCKS!
Seriously though, something I’ve found in myself recently. You have to pick your battles. When those battles are HUGE, like unemployment or moving, you let go of the daily battles that are less significant in the overall picture of your life.
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Your last post was fine – you were far less whiny that I would have been. But I’m glad you’re feeling better.
I think you’re doing an amazing job.
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i didn’t think you were whiny. i think you were frustrated. i see a difference; but i’m glad you’ve got a positive outlook today- and i hope they continue to not meltdown for you.
littlebean is only 2 1/2 months and i’ve noticed that the weekends have caused me more stress b/c The Mr. gets so stressed… and it’s harder to keep the routine when he wants to pick her up everytime she cries. so it does make sense.
enjoy the calm you.
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Oh, man! I just read both posts back to back, and I AM SO SORRY you guys are moving again so soon. And I am glad to hear you’re feeling a little more balanced, at least for now.
I will be wishing you well during the rest of this huge transition!
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It sounds like you’re doing great! Go you!
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Whatever the reason for the zen-like feelings you have … I hope it stays for a while.
I can’t believe how fast things happened…Tate is already gone?!?!
Will you at least be able to make it to Neyland … or with the way they are playing this year, do you even want to?
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Moving is a giant PIA, even if TN is mighty purdy. You’re entitled to a whiny post, I think. Keeping my fingers crossed the kids keep being sweeties and no one starts teething or the like.
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I’m so glad to see you are feeling better & that you are at least trying to cope. I’m proud of you Jennifer for keeping your perspective and your chin up.
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Very glad to hear youre feeling better. Youve been in my thoughts. Indiana is sure gonna miss Hoosyer mommy SO Corny!
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Yes, Indiana IS going to miss Hoosyer Mommy so corny. Waaaaa!
I also don’t think your post was whiny. Just overwhelmed. I have to second you on the single parenting gig. I’m the exact same way, and it’s gotten better as time’s gone on this way. Sad, really. I’m almost more anxious on the nights when I know he’s coming home. ha ha!
Good luck with everything, Jennifer. Call or email me anytime.
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Wow~ you are handling this just like anyone would~ I think it’s totally normal to feel all those emotions. You truly are doing wayyy better than I would. I am a big co-dependent baby and have lived in one city my whole life, except for college, and that was a whopping 2 hours away. And I know for a fact if we ever had to move I would be looking for the nearest bridge to jump from. You are very strong and I’m so impressed that you are holding up as well as you are! Hang in there!
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I hope your move goes smoothly and by the way I threaten to either give them to the circus or sell them to the gypsies.
It will be OK. Things happen the way they’re supposed to happen. I have friends who live in Tennessee and love it. And just think…you can do weekend trips to Graceland, and school the kids in a proper introduction to rock and roll! And also, bad taste in decorating because Graceland’s so tacky..
It is good to hear that you have had a relativly easy week. How long do you have until you join your husband in Knox.?
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I agree. My days are so muc better when hubby is working. Sometimes he has night shift and then he will be home during the day the next day and expect my schdule with the kids to change just because he is around. UGH. I don’t know how you feel fro mthe move, so best wishes on that.
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been lurking….glad things are smoothing out.
Even though I am taking a pressure break from commenting- I had to comment:
I have been married for 10 years. In 10 years I have moved CROSS country 4 times. Why? For my husbands career. And every time I kept my mouth shut and never complained. And each time was harder and more painful than the last. But you know what? Everytime I moved….things got better for us. Sometimes financially, sometimes a better house, sometimes better friends or a better school….in some way God made it up to me. He will to you too. Hang tough. Hang in there. And ‘just fake it till you feel it’….keep smiling. That is what moms do at times like these. *hug*
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Oddly, I also do way better when I’m “single-parenting.” The worst part is the anticipation of the husband being out of town. Once he’s gone, I think I slip into this ultra-capable mode because I know no one is around to save me, and things run, strangely, like clockwork. It makes me a little nervous, too.
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Um…yeah…could you help a sister out and let me know what you’ve been slipping in your orange juice to make you so calm? I could use some.
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oh, i totally should have met you at the zoo or children’s museum when i had the chance! because clearly this is all abut ME. seriously, i feel for you – it’s a hard thing not to feel you can safely put down roots. somehow i think you of all people will manage and thrive. you seem to me to be one strong cookie.
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I was also surprised at how well I handled being alone when my husband had to cover a certain hurricane last month. I was very worried, but everything went fairly well.
As for East Tennessee, it’s a nice place and very beautiful. But I guess you probably know that since you lived there before… We were in Johnson City, which is almost as far east as you can go.
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