Melodrama on the way to the race

Every time I think about what it will feel like to cross the finish line on Saturday, I cry. These past three months, training for my first half marathon with the best friends and inspiring, no nonsense coaches a girl could asked for, have been some of the very best days of my entire life. I’m not even kidding or exaggerating.

I’ve tried to write before how much this whole running thing means to me, but I don’t have the words. Saying I’m proud of myself doesn’t really convey what I mean. Saying that I’ve worked hard doesn’t come close to describing what “work” and “hard” mean. Aside from the two moments that I gave birth, there is nothing that comes close to the feeling of accomplishment that I feel for having come this far.

In less than 24 hours it will all be over and I don’t know what I’m going to do with myself. I’m going to miss getting up at 6 am on a Saturday morning to run with my girls. I’m going to miss our long talks and the laughing and the breakfast afterwards.

I guess I better start planning for my next race.

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I wrote some running tips for people who want to get started running over at my Babble blog, Southern By Proxy. Totally unrelated, I also wrote about how much I hate the school car line. Feel free to commiserate. It’s therapeutic.

15 Responses to Melodrama on the way to the race
  1. Amanda
    April 27, 2012 | 9:19 am

    What an awesome thing. Good for you (and us) that you took this on and are going through this awareness of accomplishment! Wish I could cheer you on in person!
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  2. nicole
    April 27, 2012 | 9:20 am

    I hope you have a fabulous race. I trained mostly on my own when I ran a half three years ago, so I missed out on the team aspect but I understand all the personal feelings. I still can’t believe I ever did that and that I plan to do it again. You’ll run this race and no one will be able to undo that, regardless of what your future holds. Have fun!

  3. Sarahviz
    April 27, 2012 | 9:43 am

    So proud of you!
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  4. Stephanie Precourt
    April 27, 2012 | 10:20 am

    Oh, so exciting! So inspiring, you are.

    Steph
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  5. Beth
    April 27, 2012 | 1:33 pm

    Good luck! A half is truly something to be proud of – and you’ll be surprised and how quickly you’ll want to do another…about 6 seconds after you cross the finish line.

    There’s always a marathon…(wink)
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  6. Margaret
    April 27, 2012 | 2:32 pm

    I’m doing my first half this weekend too! I understand. Totally.
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  7. Shannon Murphy
    April 27, 2012 | 3:15 pm

    Best of luck to you! You’re inspiring.

  8. Meredith
    April 27, 2012 | 3:57 pm

    Go ace out the race…and then yes, start planning for the next one :) Go you!
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  9. laura @ hollywood housewife
    April 27, 2012 | 10:27 pm

    Good luck! I know you’ll do great.
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  10. Marta
    April 28, 2012 | 1:54 pm

    Good luck on the race today!
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  11. Joann Barnes
    April 30, 2012 | 12:14 am

    Great thinking. Yes! You better get yourself another race if it really makes you happy and really fulfilled. Congrats on your first and good luck on the next races. :)
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  12. lceel
    April 30, 2012 | 12:48 pm

    So? How did it go?
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  13. Carolina John
    May 2, 2012 | 8:55 am

    I hope your half went really well! Congratulations! What kind of time did you put up?
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  14. Drake Mayer
    May 3, 2012 | 11:57 pm

    You are so inspiring, and I know for I am pretty sure that you had a good time during the race. How did it go by the way?

  15. Hannah Jeffers
    May 29, 2012 | 4:55 am

    I can’t even imagine how happy you must have been that being your first race. I am sure you aced it.