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Fine. He Was Right.

My husband gets these ideas in his head.  For awhile, he was convinced that he needed a Harley, another time he spent months researching SUV’s.  Every spring, he tries to convince me of our dire need for a boat.

Having known him for a long as I have, I usually can just ride out these whims of his. If I just ignore him when he goes on and on about horsepower and Craigslist deals, he’ll typically just drop the idea. This time, though, he just kept wearing me down.  Every night after the kids went to bed, he’d show me thousands of boats online.  On weekends he would drag us all over looking at used boats, having us climb up on them and show us all of the features.

“Look!  There’s a changing room with a mirror and a place to put a potty.”

“This boat could fit all of our friends.”

“Just think of us going out fishing as a family.”

“We will have so much fun together on the boat.”

I could tell that getting a boat was inevitable. Either I could spend the rest of my life hearing about and looking at boats or we could just get a boat and get it over with.

We’ve had the boat just a few weeks now.  Spring has made an early arrival, making it warm enough to take the boat out for rides on the lake.  And as much as it feels like swallowing glass to admit, the boat is pretty awesome.

I concede that it appears that the children find the boat to be enjoyable.  Smiling and whatnot.

I guess, JUST THIS ONE TIME, Tate was right.

The Clean Microwave Dilemma

While I was away at Blissdom, my very kind in-laws came to watch the kids while Tate was at work. I think that I’ve admitted to being a fairly lax housekeeper, right?  Well, just in case I haven’t mentioned it: I’m a fairly lax housekeeper.

Before leaving for Nashville, I tried to get the house in order for my in-laws arrival.  The toilets were clean(ish) and the guest bedroom sheets were freshly laundered.  I even mostly cleaned the kitchen, with one exception.

I did not clean the microwave. I did not clean the microwave because I’m on a microwave cleaning strike and have been on strike for about three months.  And I’m on a microwave cleaning strike because SOMEONE in my house refuses to cover their food with a paper towel, thus making a big mess every time they reheat food.  That same SOMEONE then never cleans up after him (or her) (but not really her) self and apparently doesn’t care about the glop and gloop inside the microwave.

Well this someone RIGHT HERE (that’s me, okay?) I do care about the glop and gloop in the microwave, but I’m so tired of cleaning up after SOMEONE else’s messes. I am not a maid!

*deep breath*

We’ve been at a bit of standoff, one that I was SO going to win. Which is why, when I left, the microwave was not exactly clean.

Of course, I failed to mention my microwave cleaning strike to my mother-in-law because, really?  It’s pretty childish. I admit it, OKAY?! But childish as it may be, it made me feel like, “HA!  See that dirty microwave, SOMEONE in my house?  YEAH! Well, you’re just going to have to live with it!!”

When I came home, I discovered that the microwave had been cleaned.  By my mother-in-law.

Sure, I’m happy to have a clean microwave, but man.  All those months of work for nothing.

What tree trimming was really like

tree trimming

The tree trimming at our house, it all looks so serene and full of the peace and grace of Jesus Christ, doesn’t it? You can almost imagine the God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen in the background and smell the hot chocolate sprinkled with marshmallows, bubbling in oversized mugs.

Here’s what tree trimming was really like in our house this year.

1. First of all there was definitely no hot chocolate because I was completely caught off guard by the need to trim the tree this year. Christmas? It comes every year? On the 25th you say? It only occurred to us sometime Friday morning, as we recovered from our turkey coma, that THAT very day was the ONLY non-working day we had free before December 25th.

2. …Which meant that I hadn’t even had a chance to remove all the Thanksgiving finery in my home. I piled the pumpkins and gourds and leaf garlands on my kitchen counters, creating an atmosphere of chaos! and clutter! This was a problem because I don’t do chaos! and clutter! well when inviting more chaos! and clutter! Christmas decorations into the house.

3. So we got started on the wrong foot! No hot chocolate! Chaos! and clutter!

4. I’m taking an online photo class from Willette called Finding the Joy and had received my assignment that morning to photograph our annual tree trimming festivities. Well finding the joy, INDEED, because my family gets highly irritated by my constant click, click, clicking with the camera. But I had an ASSIGNMENT! I was FINDING JOY for crying out loud.

5. So I may or may not have cried out loud out of frustration that our tree trimming was lacking joy.

6. I was doing the laundry in the midst of tree trimming. Frankly, folding a load of underwear does not get me in the Christmas spirit.

7. We allowed the kids to unbox and unwrap delicate ornaments, some of which are OLD (like 35 WHOLE years old). This was a mistake. This is tradition that won’t continue. Lesson learned.

8. We had to take a snack break during the “festivities.” Since I was unprepared, the kids had Super Mario fruit snacks, because nothing says Merry Christmas like gummies shaped like Luigi.

9. But really? It all ended up being perfect (in spite of myself and in spite of broken ornaments and clusters of ornaments on the tree. But mostly in spite of myself.)

10. We ended on a high note with a hearty chuckle about blue balls. Because nothing says Merry Christmas like, well, never mind.

blue balls

Wishful thinking (Updated! With epiphanies!)

Here’s a conversation between Tate and I that will most likely never happen:

Tate:  “Hey babe!  I was just thinking that since the kids are at school today, hows about you meet me for lunch today?  Just the two of us.” (Tate would never actually say “hows about,” but I added it for a little flair.)

Me:  “Really??!!  Just the two of us?  For lunch?  I can’t believe you asked me!!  YES!  YES, I’ll meet you for lunch today, I’d really love that!”

I know that if I want this to happen, then I’m going to need to ask Tate specifically if he would kindly invite me to have lunch with him.  It’s the fact that I need to directly ask this very specific request that just makes me kind of sigh heavily and roll my eyes.  It would be nice if he understood me a little better.

Me:  “I sure have been hungry for Mexican.  Too bad you usually eat Mexican food during the week and don’t feel like having it when we go out.”

To me, this sounds like, “Honey, please invite me out for Mexican food.  The kids are in school and we could have our very own date!  In the middle of the day!  How cool is that?!”

I’m not a psychologist or reader of men, but I suspect that when I mention my Mexican food craving to Tate he hears, “My wife is hungry for Mexican food.  I am going to take off my socks now.”

Last night, Tate told me he had tried the new Mexican place for lunch.  (This is where I sigh heavily and roll my eyes.)  Against my stubborn instincts, I said to Tate, “Maybe some time you could invite me to have lunch, you know, since the kids are in school.”  Why must I have to be so transparent???

The kids are in school tomorrow and we’ll see if Tate interpreted my sentence to mean, “Maybe I should call my wife and invite her to have lunch today.”

He’ll get bonus points if he invites me out to lunch AND it’s JUST THE TWO OF US.  Double bonus points if he takes me out for Mexican even though he had already had Mexican this week.

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UPDATE.

He didn’t invite me to lunch.  Originally, at lunch time, I felt a little dejected.  I mean, why doesn’t he read my freaking blog and why didn’t any of his FRIENDS WHO READ MY BLOG, tell him.  (Hi Tate’s friends!!  I see you with my magic internetty powers.)

When Tate got home last night he told me that he had had an epiphany.

“Oh really, Tate,” I said.  “What was your epiphany.”

“Well, since the kids are in school on Tuesdays and Thursdays, we should go out sometime for lunch.  Mexican?”

Epiphany, my butt.  I’ll take it, though.  And thank you to whomever let him in on my wish.  I think this is a true testament to the power of social media.

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One year ago today, Tate admitted that it was like “looking at a mom, or something.”  Three years ago, Tate and I had our very first online battle and I *gasp* lost.

Four slices of bread

We had a fight about four slices of bread.  Anyone with a Marital Communications degree from the University of Donahue, Oprah, and Dr. Phil could tell you that the fight wasn’t actually about four slices of bread.

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“What is this REALLY about?”  I can’t say that I simply asked this, I screamed it.  Had a plate and not my MacBook been in my hand, I probably would have thrown it at his head.

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He told me what it was really about, but I know that’s not ALL of it.  There’s more bubbling under the facade of bread.  (Please see my credentials above.)  I’m not even certain exactly what it was about the four slices of bread for me, maybe it’s that I feel unappreciated.  Maybe I feel incredibly self-conscious about my role in the family, even though I know that his job and my job couldn’t be successful without the other.  Maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of the bread.

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But DAMN.  Those four slices of bread pissed me RIGHT off.  And I’m not going to apologize.

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It doesn’t appear that Tate is going to apologize either.

Well.

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“I have to go to Chuck’s wake tonight.  You know?  The guy from work I told you about?  I’ll be late, will probably miss bed and bath time.”  Tate called me from the road, speaking politely, as if I were a customer service operator.

“Fine,” I said.  “That’s fine.”

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He called on his way home from the wake.  “We can’t fight like this anymore.  It’s so petty and ridiculous.  Chuck was a young man!  Only forty-five.  He was fine six weeks ago.”

Chuck started to feel sick.  They thought it was his gall bladder.  Six weeks later he died as a result of pancreatic cancer.  He is survived by his wife.

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I think that perhaps we should forget about those four slices of bread.

The Blue Spatula

Tate and I seem to have the same fights over and over, sort of like some jerk recorded us arguing almost twelve years ago and presses play every few days.  Most of these fights are ridiculous and minor, but when you have the same fight enough times, it eventually feels like a MAJOR EVENT.

Three day weekends seem to magnify these MAJOR EVENTS minor fights.   Stupid three day weekends and their empty promises of relaxation and family harmony.  Hmph.  As if.

We own a blue, heat resistant spatula that we always use to cook eggs.  My wonderful husband almost always cleans the kitchen after these special weekend breakfasts, which is, yes, wonderful.  Except that it’s not wonderful when I’m emptying the dishwasher later and find that the blue spatula is still covered in egg.  This has happened every time he’s been in charge of “cleaning” since we got the spatula as a wedding gift in 2001.  I’ve tried explaining (Tate would say nagging.  Potato, pot-ah-to) that the blue spatula must be free of all egg debris prior to it’s insertion in the dishwasher otherwise my head explodes and I become unable to fulfill my wifely duties.

There has been no change in his behavior.  I’m starting to think my tactic isn’t working.

Tate is addicted to soft beverages.  Every morning I find at least two empty cans of Pepsi One sitting suspiciously around the house.  It’s suspicious because I’ve told (nagged?) Tate that when he leaves his empties around the house for me to throw away, I feel like an unappreciated, yet well-trained monkey.  I’ve tried just leaving the soda cans out for him to throw away, but I just end up having twice as many to throw away the next morning.  Threats and passive aggressive text messages go ignored.

Whenever I get on my phone or on the computer, or if I’m immersed in a good book, I’ve been told that I completely block out everything around me.  According to Tate, I’m very good at appearing to listen, nodding, even responding appropriately.  I don’t even realize that we’ve had a conversation until later when Tate brings up something that we allegedly talked about.  (I swear this is entrapment!) The disagreement almost always turns into a full-on argument about the time I spend clicking away on my phone/computer and I get defensive and Tate gets all, “why are you so defensive,” and then I get all screamy about the importance of Words with Friends.

Every night after the kids are finally bathed, read to, tucked in, watered, supplied with specific, hard to find bedtime toys, kissed, kissed again, hugged, hugged again, Tate and I settle on the couch to battle over the remote control and television volume.  Whomever is in charge of the remote control seems to feel that the television show chosen is the only thing worth watching at that moment.  Honestly, neither of us is usually very willing to consider the other’s viewing interests.  I like to watch House Hunters at a nice, low volume.  Tate likes to watch Shoot Em’ Up gun shows at blaring levels.  I’m sure he’d say that I watch Crap and Drivel at ear deafening volumes, and that he watches Important Educational Shows about Home Defense at a comfortable volume.  (He’s completely wrong, but whatever.)

I’m looking forward to the day when I’ll laugh about how ridiculous these tiffs are, which will probably be when I’m old and rich enough after winning the lottery to afford someone to come in and clean up after Tate, and deaf enough not to care that Tate loves to watch the TV with the volume as high as it will go.

What ongoing fights do you have with your spouse/significant other/partner/[insert politically correct terminology here]?

We might need a do-over

Oh hi there!  I know, I know, it’s been days since I last wrote anything.  I attended Blissdom in Nashville and didn’t have a chance to write before leaving.  Normally this wouldn’t matter even one, tiny bit, but this time I left up such an angsty post!  I had every intention of writing something funny or a posting a cute picture of a kid or ANYTHING ELSE BUT THAT before the conference, but I just didn’t get a chance.

As always, from the very bottom of my heart, THANK YOU for your kind words and for your own personal stories regarding my State of our Marriage and rotten parenting worries.   Each of your comments meant such a great deal to me.  One in particular, from Rima, ended with a quote that I ADORE and want framed or tattooed somewhere on my body. I’m leaning towards framed rather than tattooed.

Let everything happen to you – the beauty, the terror. Just keep going, no feeling is final.” ~Rilke

Is that not perfect?!  Thank you, Rima, truly.

I took your words and heart felt advice and talked to Tate before leaving for Nashville.  I knew that leaving with such a heavy burden on my heart and on my mind would have furthered the rift in our marriage.  In my mind, I planned to sit Tate down and have our much needed talk, but only after I had completely gotten ready for the next day’s departure.  Tate, however, decided to confront ME while I was in the middle of preparations.

Unfortunately I was completing a VERY IMPORTANT pre-conference beauty ritual when he decided it was time to talk.  I had just put whitening strips on my teeth.   How sherioush a convershation can you reary have when you’re wearing whitening shtripsh?  Yeah, I don’t know.  We might need to have a do-over very serious conversation since it was hard for both of us not to laugh with spit and speech impediments flying out of my mouth.

At least it was a start.